How much has changed.; what is to come next?

     Today i have really noticed how much has changed, and I really noticed this by just watching a two simple YouTube videos about teens reacting to The Beatles and Nirvana. Two really good bands and definitely on my favorites list, and also watching the ending of toy story 3.

      Knowing that i'm sixteen, in high-school, doing drivers training, and still manage to find time to play my games, do homework, and play with my action figures. I really do feel grown up now. And  in some ways it feels good, but in others i would just like to lay on the floor of my house and sit and play action figures with my brother like old times. Setting up battles or recreating scenarios that was  one of my favorite childhood memories. Also just playing games with my buds,I don't want all this too end.

    I just feel as you grow older you just loose time for all that stuff that makes you,you. And music also shows how shit changes.

    It's been twenty years almost since kurt cobain took his own life. And from that time look at how much music has changed, they had such a distinct sound and it was good and it connected to a lot of teens. The Beatles almost the same way with changing too what was going on in trends with the teens and everyone loved them. It's a tragedy to see them go, and even though I feel like there hasn't been that many great bands out recently, there still are some. But you know you're always gonna love the classics and are gonna give them a good listen.

     I just wish it socially acceptable for me to listen to what music i like in highschool, for me not to hid the fact that i still play with my action figures sometimes when i'm home alone, or that i cried when i saw the ending of toy story too. If people could just be open, i would be more willing to accept these changes

But also the fact that I have to start taking more responsibility in life, kind of scares me. I have to think about paying for college, hell where do i even want to go to college and what for! I have an idea but i have no idea where my mind is gonna take me in two years when i'm about to finish highschool. It scares me, and it scares alot of other people too, i don't want to grow away from all my good friends but i know alot of them don't want to all do the same career path.

    What i'm trying to get at is that i don't want the little kid part of me to leave, cause I love it, I love being a kid at points, just wish i wasn't always treated like one.